Mama and I went to the park this weekend. There were swings and climby things and best of all, slides! I headed straight for the biggest one. I was able to go up the stairs by myself and head over to the top of the slide but every time I did, mama sat down next to me and grabbed my hand. I guess she was scared and wanted me to help her slide down. We went down the slide again and again. Then we went on the swings. Mama made me sit on her lap. She let me sit on the swing on my own but never let me go very high when I was sitting there by myself.
Sometimes when mama or dada tell me "no" or don't let me do something I want to do, I get these really strong, scary feelings inside. I get so worked up and don't know what to do so my body takes over. Sometimes I hit or throw things, sometimes I even throw myself into a chair or wall. I don't like feeling like this but I can't help it. Feeling powerless is no fun. I have heard about "terrible twos" and yeah so far it's not looking good.
So this weekend, dada took the pumpkins from mama's garden and did some weird stuff with them. He cut their heads off and gutted them. It was violent and disturbing. I've seen similar stuff around the neighborhood too, pumpkins with scary faces in them. I guess mama wanted to be different 'cause she didn't make a face, just used the cordless drill to make holes in it. Grownups are weird.
Last night before bedtime, mama and I walked up the street with Bailey. It was dark outside so we were looking at the stars and the streetlights. We walked a few blocks up and mama showed me this house with cool orange lights and tombstones in the yard. They even had a giant winnie the pooh dressed up as a vampire. Awesome! I really liked walking around outside at night, it's not like daytime 'cause it's dark.